The Anxieties of Joy
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This post explains itself, it is about the anxieties that come with joy and good news when pain and disappointment are commonplace and expected. Even though I know better, I always expect the worse. I think it is a mechanism to protect myself from world shattering disappointment, but it has gotten to the point that if something good happens, I wait for someone to tell me it was a joke or mistake.
“Vasilis, you deserve it all. You deserve the world. You deserve happiness and you deserve joy.” I have to remind myself in moments like that because there are constant reminders of what could go wrong, not enough of what could go right.
I am getting better as appreciating myself and commending myself for living my life the way it needs to be lived. It is a process and I learn everyday.
As for the news, I will share that at a later date, when I am ready for public view and commentary.
Nke a bụ Nonso ma anyị na-asụ bekee!